Sad......

Josh and I had a long chat this weekend and he has decided that there is no way that he can take 3 weeks off to go to South Africa. He feels like it is completely stressing him out and does not want to take the time out of his schedule. I feel so sad for him as he loves South Africa with a passion that is quite unexpected from one who was not born there. He is obsessed with rugby and wakes up before the birds to watch games with my dad. There is something about biltong at 2am in the morning that would make even me hurl. I must say after 10 years of marriage and all the crap I give him, I cannot imagine being away from him for that long and am really sad to not have him be a part of the experience that the girls and I will have. I know he is right and this is the best decision but why dioes it not feel so right???