Sunday in review

Yesterday turned out to be the perfect end of the weekend, we had a friend watching Ryan for Saturday Night, Nikki slept at my father-in-law and Josh and I were lucky enough to sleep in. We met up with the kids at my folks place at 1:30pm for a day in the sun. Loren's husband, Jeff brought his adorable girls (similar ages to my two) and the four of them played so well together. We then went back to Jeff's home for an unbelievable BBQ/braai and we had such a mellow time. Because Loren is still in India her babysitter was on hand and she watched over the kids while we had such a great chat. It was a very special night and we had to cut it short at 8:30pm, had to get the kids back home or they would never make it up for camp the next day

Monday Madness

Monday did not start off with the serenity that Sunday had left us. I made the decision to change doctors as Ry's current doctor is for want of a better word, whacked. She did a real whacky treatment on Saturday and I was just not prepared to hand my child over to where her treatment is leading us. I am a very cerebral person, if I understand it I can do, it is very hard for me to take a complete leap of faith and just know it is going to be OK. I am very much about searching for all the facts so I can narrow down the information to a point that it makes sense to me, this has not been one of those journeys and it has left me unsettled and unsure, not an easy stance for me to take. I decided to start off in another direction, one that makes more sense for Ryan and for me, one that would not have us living on a commune in Vermont growing organic produce and reducing our consumerism to single digit figures. I want to survive within the world we are living in and make it work for me and my child. I have set up a whole battery of dr's appointments and hope one will send me in the direction I need to be in. Wish me luck.